Why am I never your day one?

About this track

[intro] Soft piano (Oh-oh, mm) [verse 1] I gave you all the daylight in my chest Every ounce, nothing left, nothing less You took the warmth and turned it into cold Left me out here trying to hold [verse 2] I felt it drop, my heart to my stomach That sinking kind of truth you can’t outrun it Every time I start to trust, it ends the same Another echo of my name [chorus] Why am I never your day one? Always the afterthought when the day’s done I pour my love till the well runs dry Then you leave me asking why Thrown away like I meant nothing All this giving turns to something Empty, breaking, numb and scarred Guess I loved you way too hard [verse 3] Big heart bleeding through a paper skin Let you see the worst and let you in But every door I open turns to dust Every promise rusts to mistrust [verse 4] Now every step feels like a warning sign Every goodbye hits before its time I taste the panic rising in my throat Another love I can’t hold [chorus] Why am I never your day one? Always the afterthought when the day’s done I pour my love till the well runs dry Then you leave me asking why Thrown away like I meant nothing All this giving turns to something Empty, breaking, numb and scarred Guess I loved you way too hard [bridge] What is wrong with me, I whisper low Watching everyone I love just go Walls so high they scrape the sky But they’re the only reason I survive [outro] (Oh-oh, oh-oh) Now I don’t wanna be your day one I’m done being less than someone My love’s not yours to drain and leave I’m learning how to breathe You can keep your empty promises I’m done chasing what your love isn’t Closed off, yeah, but I’m healing slow Letting go, I’m letting go (Oh-oh) My heart’s still here, just learning no.